Milan’s blog

wow...i'm so glad to be home...i've had a ruff day, more tiresome than anything...i work in an emergency room at a local hospital and i find some days more tiresome than others and today was not good...we have been sooo busy the past few weeks...my hubbie and i are doing okay, isn't that wonderful??? i also heard from the agancy i'm signed with and i should be able to do my photoshoot by the end of march...i have been trying to diet and lose a lil weight, but you know how that is...easier said than done...i'm gonna take one day at a time and go from there...i've cut out my late night snacks and i'm ready to make this change...at least be healthier by summer, which i plan to have a blast this year...so whta is going on in everyone else's world???  i've been reading some interesting posts...and diamond, girl, i love the one about eve...i let some of my girlfriends read it, so we were all cracking up on what if...thanks for that laugh, i needed that....

i've been with my fiance for a lil while now, and it seems that we are arguing and having difference of opinions too much...it seems that we are on two different levels...i was really excited tonight about some things that were going good for me, and now i feel like crappppp!!!  i feel that every time i have things that are going good something negative comes up in my relationship...and it's always the simple things or dumb things, or just a lack of understanding feelings...i can be an emotional person and i know this, but i feel that if you're in a relationship the feelings of both people should be considered...and one person should not feel that they run a relationship, or what they say goes...i don't know why i let myself get so down about things and then i think about how much i love him, but he chooses not to try to understand anything going on with me...my life is really complicated for me and i go through a lot that no one else even knows about...yet in this relationship, i feel like i'm not important and how i feel does not matter...i feel that i'm the one whom he denies now, and i used to feel so lucky to be so in love and love someone so much...i could go to him about anything and no matter what anyone said about him or us didn't matter...all that mattered to me was us and that we were together...i've never felt so down or worthless about such situations before...i go through each day wondering what the next issue will be...i spend free time in tears b/c i feel that i'm alone when i shouldn't be...the things i need to talk to someone about, i can't and the things that are irrelevant are the biggest issues...and when it comes to my other friends, they think that i'm not where i need to be, so conversation does not come easy...i actually talked to my mom about all of this, and i never talk to her about any of my personal business, b/c i feel that she always takes it to a level that it isn't...what happened to just normal dating and having fun, and just living life to thew fullest w/o the aggravation...all i want is one man to love me for me and not what he wants me to be and not what he feels he can turn me into...is that so bad???is there anyone else who feels this way???

What's your morning beverage of choice?  Coffee, tea, juice?  Homemade or store-bought?

I LOVE HOME MADE ICED T...SWEET...SOUTHERN STYLE...

What is your favorite scent or smell and why? 
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I LOVE LAVENDER VANILLA...IT'S REALLY RELAXING AND CALMING

HI!!!  MY NAME IS MILAN AND THIS IS GOING TO BE MY FIRST BLOG!!!  I'M REALLY EXCITED ABOUT IT, BECAUSE I HOPE TO MEET SOME VERY INTERESTING PEOPLE AND HEAR VERY UNIQUE OPINIONS.  YA SEE I'M CURRENTLY A MANICURIST WHO, WAS A MODEL, WHO NOW WANTS TO BE A STYLIST.  I HAVE A UNIQUE SENSE OF STYLE THAT SEEMS TO BE IMPECCABLE AND I ALSO PLAN TO GET BACK INTO MODELING VERY SOON.  MY FAMILY WHICH INCLUDES SOME OF MY CLOSETS PROTEGES ARE VERY DEAR TO ME.  I HAVE FOUR SISTERS AND ONE BROTHER, BIOLOGICALLY AND BUNCHES OF OTHER SIBLINGS.  I AM CURRENTLY ENGAGED AND IN HOPE OF PLANNING A TRULY DYNAMIC WEDDING.  I HOPE TO MEET A LOTTA NEW FRIENDS.  ANYTHING YOU WANNA KNOW JUST ASK...